Things to Contemplate

I read several books recently but I just don't feel like writing about them yet. Thought they were informative and instructional on the faith, I just feel lack of zeal for them.

Zeal is something that comes and goes in most of our lives. But zeal is what I long for. I want to have that ready to go feeling every morning when I wake up. I want to feel alive. I want to know that I am loved and I want to love with passion.

How do we get there? There are days I don't want to get out of bed. There are days I feel desperation, "nothing is going my way". There are days I am so disgusted with our pervasively morally decadent society that I want to scream. It is a constant attack on my senses. It is everywhere, movies, TV, schools, billboards and the church.

Yes I wrote the church. But notice I wrote with a little "c" meaning the organization and not the big "C" which is the Magisterium with people which protect and hand down the faith from generation to generation.

It is very sad but I feel I always have to be very critical of what I hear priests say to their flock. It seems that there is very little about "the way" which Jesus taught and only about that God loves us. Yes he does love us but he has sacrificed his only son so that we can be redeemed and that if we hear the word of God we live it. Basically what we hear everywhere is the same mantra. But does this save souls? If our priests truly cared, like a good father they would correct us when we are wrong by lovingly showing us the error of our ways. But from many you would believe that anything goes and we can do as we please.

It brings me back to my zeal. I try so hard to live the faith with zeal. But when I go out to many a mass I hear no inspiration. I hear no education of the faith and I hear no excitement from others.

I have decided it is not my responsibility to think about these inherent faults in our churches and let them bring me down. Instead I have found zeal through living and sharing my faith to its fullest. I seek inspiration where I can get it by sharing with my brothers in Christ, by going to daily mass and confession every two weeks. Almost everyday I hear the word of God and it inspires me and keeps me focused. I also receive the Blessed Sacrament and it gives me strength.

I won't lie, sometimes I loose my excitement and I am weak. I feel desperation and start to fall apart. But when I start the next day by going to mass it always brings me back.

Bottom-line what I am saying is look for inspiration from God and not from others or yourself. We are all human and will let each other down. But God who is close with us at mass and at prayer will never fail us.

VIVAT JESUS!